Thinking of a page dedicted to friends, this came across my mind... so here's my honsety to 10 people, in random order~ See if you can find yourselves ^^
"Write 10 statements of pure honesty intended to different people"
1. Did you let go of my hand because it was too hard to hold on? or Did you let go because i turned you down? I always thought you'd be the friend who would always be there for me... but i guess i was wrong. I always thought you were a brother to me, and every childhood memory i have that were remotely happy had some things to do with you. From the time when i was 3 to when i was 15, you were always there for me. For a year I lied to myself that you'd return to how you were... but you still didn't. Oppa, i'll accept it now. You won't hear this from me, but i hope you'll know that i can't describe how grateful for the 12 years when you took care of me... Oppa, thank you. And Goodbye.
2. I haven't known you for very long, but i've gotten to know you intimately recently~ Somehow, i feel safe with you, and i feel protected when i know you'll be there for me. I want our relationship to last, and i hope everything will be good and easy going ^^ I'm not too sure how to treat a person well, but i've been just doing what my heart tells me to do... i hope it's been the right things. I want you to know that sometimes, i'm a very slow person, and that sometimes i don't realize when things aren't going right. I want you to know that i hope you'd let me know if something's out of place so we can fix it and things will develop positively ^^ Alright?
3. To be honest, before now- i never really thought we'd have a chance to become really good friends! but now that we are, i'm super glad for it! I have alot of fun when i'm with you, and i really think you have a very lovely and pure heart! I like your personality, and i hope our friendship lasts for a long long time ^^ I think this sounds sappy now, but it is how i feel. I'm really thankful that you're very accepting of everything that's happened, and that you've been one of the most supportive people to me through the past months ^^ It's really been a blessing to have you there by my side~ Tons of love to you! and hopefully we'll create more beautiful memories in 2009!
4. Baka! Sometimes, i don't know why i even put up with you! Sometimes, i wish that when you transfered, you'd be out of my life completly! Yet seeing you on the streets really do some damages to my heart, maybe i can't ever forget you... perhaps that's just a pattern in life with the things that take place and the imprints they leave on a person. So Baka! Live your life well, because if i can't ignore your presence, then i want to witness a good life to put into a story one day ^^ I guess, you were right... writing will be my thing in the end.... sayaonara?
5. What is the meaning of best friend? what is a true friend? I'm still not quite sure... but i think you're my best friend and that you are a true friend! I honestly hope that you feel the same towards my friendship, but i guess with time, perhaps we'll find out and affirm our friendship. We talk often and everytime, thousands of words are exchanged, but it always feel like there are a million more things i want to say to you. Maybe that's what best friends do? So, through all the thick and thin, i want to walk through life with your hand in mine! THANK YOU! Ah... i hope our friendship last until forever more ^^ You are definately always there for me! and i'll try harder to always be there for you! You're a great listener, a great bobo-er ^^, and a great person in tons of ways!
6. Lately, i've been doubting if you really see me as a friend. I was pretty worried until people told me that's just the way you are. I hope things will get better, and that i'll get used to your semi-cold ways of treating a person. Do i annoy you alot? Am i a hassel sometimes... i feel that you see me as a damsel in distress, but part of my new year resolution this year! i'll get rid of the distress there ^^ You won't be reading this... because i know you don't like the usage of english.. But this webpage can't show chinese ... ahh... maybe you'll read it! and if you do actually read it when i ask you to, hmm i'll give you a hug... and hmm... i'll refer you as ---sama for a few days ^^ That's all~
7. You came, you saw, you conquered... and you left. I don't blame you for what happened, i'm rather greatful for all the memories you brought to me. Perhaps i didn't know you fully then, and i don't think i'll ever get a chance to completely understand you now. Yet, it's all okay. You moved on from me, and i'll have to learn to do the same some day. I guess I want closure on the subject of you, and everything that came with it. I don't regret anything, every decision i made while i was with you (whether it led to postive or negative things) are all okay. Others may say i'm stupid or insane, but i'll bare it, it's the result of the choices i made, and i'm glad you taught me how to live with every consequence... Sometimes it hurts to think of you, and to remember. Yet recently, once in awhile, remembering your smile can bring a smile to me as well... i think that's probably because i was really happy then. Whatever happened- happened. Whatever happens - happens. I'll let time take control, and willingly go with the flow.
8. Some people say similarities bring people together, but i think it's probably difference that does that better. Our first meeting was childish/jokeable, and over the years our friendship has progressed so much~ postively i hope! You and me, we're like black and white! We're as opposite as opposites can get, but at the same time we are similar in a few definitive ways! It still amazes me how we're still great friends despite the different paths we're taking. All the times i've cried to you, and you've cried to me... all those bittersweet memories that we carried each other through... i don't know what to say other than.. i'm so glad you're my friend, and that literature/jazz brings us together ^^
9. I haven't been able to say this, but I do really cherish our friendship, and I hope we can be the kind of friends that still hang out with each other after years and years. I think that you're a very beautiful person outside and on the inside. I don't think you see how great of a person you are sometimes! and I don't think you know how some of the things you do can honestly help a person alot more than they'll let you know! ... I want to say "Thank you!" for all the times you've been there to boost my confidence when i doubt myself, and to affirm my ideas when my persistence sways.... I hope i can be just as good of a friend to you, and i hope you'll let me know if there are things i do that bother you! I'll change ~~ if i am told what to change by people i trust~ like you ^^
10. You're so far away from me... and it seems like i can't find time to call or email ... i'm sorry. I do miss you alot, and i don't know if i'll be able to see you again for a long long time. Perhaps one day we can have a reunion... and if that day exists, then i hope it comes sooner rather than later... Our friendship has been pushed through alot by time and distance. In my memories with you, we were still in grade 6 and 7... but those childhood years were very fun. We didn't stress so much about everything, and i really enjoyed the sleepovers that we had. How are you now? How did you celebrate New Year? I wonder... if 2009 will be the year when we'll meet again.