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DBSK Fan Fiction

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Fanfiction written for Dong Bang Shin Ki member JaeJoong

Consisting of nine chapters

Written 2007

 

Tearstained

 

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(Ft. Kim JaeJoong)

 

For my love -

Kim JaeJoong

"With many thanks for having saved me."

 

 

Prologue 

 

I blinked back the tears that were swimming in my eyes. This is probably going to be the last time I see you... Turning back my attention to the stage as the five members said their goodbyes, the spotlight shone on the five of them but I only saw Kim JaeJoong. It was impossible to measure how much I wished his eyes would sweep past me, if only for a second.

 

I'm thankful for the front row seat. Surrounded by thousands of screaming fans, I was quiet. I did not yell my love out to him; I just sat there gazing at his beautiful features, drowning in the ocean in his voice.

 

The music came to a stop, the spotlights faded out. The five members' footsteps echoed by concert effect as they walked off the stage; it took a moment for my heart to grasp that the concert ended. Slowly as in a dream, I made my way to the door; tears now ran freely down my cheeks, but no one noticed.

 

Chapter One

**JaeJoong's P.O.V**

Drenched in sweat, blinded by the spotlights, I was almost glad that the concert was coming to an end. Standing in the middle of the stage, I waited for my turn to say goodbye. Scanning over the fans one last time, I noticed one girl in the front row. Unlike all the other screaming fans, she was looking down.

 

My eyes lingered on her for a moment longer before ChangMin nudged at me. Quickly I looked out and spoke my good byes to the Cassiopeia. When I finished, Yunho started to summarize everything to wrap up the night, I smiled at the cheering fans and couldn't help but looked back at that one girl. Once again she wasn't looking onto the stage; her eyes were closed and she looked down again to, seemingly, brush away tears.

 

Did we disappoint her that much?

 

Shocked flushed my system; I honestly thought we performed rather well tonight.

 

Maybe it's because of other things... I worried for this fan, but didn't try to think of what could've been making her cry, pretending she was going to be fine brought enough comfort for me to keep smiling for the moment.

 

As we walked off the stage, I shot one last glance towards the girl. She was looking up, tears running down her face and her lips moved in a whisper...

 

It surprised me as I found the movement resemble the words, "Goodbye JaeJoong Oppa, sa-rang-hae."

 

** YaeRim**

10:00 p.m

 

"They're leaving by the red carpet outside!!" a girl screamed as she pushed past me through the crowds. Instantly, all the fans rushed that way picking up pace. One more time... I just want one more glance.

 

Suddenly I felt an urge to see JaeJoong, my love, for just one more time. Rushing through the crowds, I rushed up towards the red carpet. With all the pushing fan girls around me, I felt too small and utterly unnoticeable. I took a step and felt a force against my back. I lurched forward. Nothing was around me to take hold of and no one bothered to notice or lend a hand, I had no choice but to helplessly let myself crash against the ground.

 

Knocking over a section of the red rope marking the red carpet limits, I tumbled and landed in the middle of the walkway. Pain shot through my body from the palms of my hand and one of my knees, I stole a gasp of oxygen and squished my eyes shut to smother the coming scream. TVXQ has already walked past the areas so I assumed that not many noticed me. I tried to get up, but as I looked at my knee, blood had already run down my leg staining the straps of my brand new heels.

 

"Aishh" I sighed trying to numb the pain it caused to move.

 

"Are you okay?" a gentle voice that was so very familiar spoke; it was a voice that I would dream about. I looked up and saw the person that made my heart race, Kim JaeJoong stood over me offering his hand. Taking his hand with my dirt encrusted hand; I felt blood color my cheeks as he helped pull me up.

 

I didn't trust my voice if I tried to answer, so I resorted to nodding once in response. I pulled my hand back, embarrassed that my dirtied his soft hand and blocked his stride. I loved his eyes but at that time, I couldn't bring myself to gaze into them. Taking a step, I turned to run away from the red carpet and any attention I was receiving.

 

"Wait, don't you think I deserve a thank you?" JaeJoong smiled a little, his perfect voice melted the strength i had to walk away. "Your knee is bleeding."

 

I still avoided his gaze to the best of my abilities, wanting to something along the lines of 'thank you' and it's okay', my lips parted but nothing came out. A few seconds passed, my gaze dropping from his shoulder, to his shoes, to the ground and finally to my feet.

 

"Here," He waved a band-aid in front of my eyes, which with shaking hands, I took from him. "Make sure you put on antiseptic when you get home."

 

"Thank you," I said in barely a whisper. I wasn,t sure whether or not he heard me.

 

He laughed a little, turning his perfect body; he walked away with the other members to elegant strides. I gazed at his back as he walked further away. Desperately hoping he'd look back, but praying at the same time that he wouldn't.

 

I looked down and smiled stupidly to myself; on the ground lay a wallet which I assumed JaeJoong has dropped. All the fans have turned their attention to TVXQ while they walked away; giving me time to bend and pick up his wallet without many others noticing. A thought occurred to me that many would just think it was my wallet.

 

So typical of him, JaeJoong's wallet was a Louis-Vuitton designer with custom engraving of his name at the bottom - HERO. I should return this... but.

 

After that one second of doubt, it was too late. When I tried to run down the red carpet after them, the van where TVXQ sat already kicked into motion. I froze for a second but quickly turned to run for the bus station. I must return this; he probably wants his belongings.  If I go to SM entertainment's building then I can just leave it at the front desk.

 

**JaeJoong**

10:15 p.m

 

Sitting on the car finally, I wiped more sweat off my forehead. After restraining myself to look back earlier, I failed now. I looked out the window and saw her staring at the van. Wasn't that the girl that was crying earlier? Something else caught my eye. In her hand she held something that vaguely resembled my wallet. With a shimmer of nervousness, I quickly touched my pocket. Swearing in whispers, I glared back at her; she looked up and took a few steps down the red carpet, then stopped. I knew why, there's no way she'd catch up with the van. I nearly called for the driver to stop, but thought otherwise as fans started to chase after the van. I looked back at the culprit; she had already started running down the street into the darkness.

 

"Hyung, what are you looking at?" Yoochun smacked my back. "Tonight we did well huh?"

 

"YEAHHH, ahahaha, remember Balloons? Our fans went crazy." Junsu's laugh made me smirk. Well, there's no way she'd give that back... that culprit. At least there wasn't much money. There were only some of my pictures, and...  MY NUMBER! I heaved a great sigh.

 

"JaeJoong, are you feeling alright?" Yunho asked, always the thoughtful one. I took out my new white cell phone and slide the front up, the screen lit up but my mood plummeted a little further into darkness.

 

"I dropped my wallet, a Cassiopeia has it, I saw her..." I muttered then wailed, "My new cell number is in it!"

 

**YaeRim**

10:20 p.m

 

The seat on the bus seemed too hard, it made me fidget endlessly. I ran my fingers across his wallet, the fabric slightly worn at some corners but otherwise seemed brand new. Unable to control my curiosity, I opened it. Some part of my conscience knew this was not respecting his privacy, but I still couldn't help it. I snapped pictures of all the pictures in his wallet and pictures of the wallet itself. For memories... I deserve to have some things to look at while sitting in my hospital bed.

 

The bus arrived and quickly I ran off my seat to get off. Standing outside SM office I noticed the van come by, quickly I hid in the dark. I couldn't bring myself to go up to him and present him the wallet. After they walked in and the many fans waiting outside quieted down. I took one last look at the wallet and walked towards the door of the building. As I closed the wallet, a small piece of paper fell out and floated to the ground. I picked up the paper before wind carried it away from me; it was a hand written note. I recognised JaeJoong's writing font from the times he's written things for fans, my heart leapt as I read.

Manager Hyung:

            I've changed my cell phone number due to the fact that fans found out of the last one. My number is now 565-795-6664 (kmJaeJoong), please change my contact in the SM town directory. Thank you.

JaeJoong

 

My body reacted before my brain processed the information, a few blinks later; JaeJoong became apart of my phone contact list.

 

 

100 reasons why I love JaeJoong

[By – Raera (jaejoongs_babi)]

 

For JaeJoong’s 21st birthday

 

  1. Just seeing him smile makes me happy
  2. He is not spoiled even though he grew up with 8 sisters
  3. He stole ChangMin’s first kiss when ChangMin was sleeping
  4. He can be totally mature
  5. He can be 100% responsible
  6. He goofs off at times and can appear as a child
  7. He can cook
  8. His cooking is exceptionally good
  9. He doesn’t mind too much about being called “Mommy of TVXQ”
  10. He was able to go from no singing skills at all to being one of the best singers in Korea
  11. His manly and husky voice when singing high
  12. His smooth angelic voice when singling low and slow
  13. His adorable accent when speaking English
  14. How he tries so hard to learn Chinese for his Chinese fans
  15. How he tries so hard to learn Jap for his Japanese fans
  16. How he covers his mouth when he laughs
  17. How he forgets to hide his laugh sometimes and can make a girl get a nosebleed (this has actually happened)
  18. How he overcame a tough childhood
  19. How he hides his pains from others so other people won’t be sad or hurt for him
  20. How his trademark laugh is the most angelic sound.
  21. How he’d smile to his fans regardless of how tired he feels
  22. He tries to make all his fans feel loved and important
  23. How he can look prettier than any girl I know
  24. His six pack (*faint*)
  25. How when he’s extremely tired, he falls asleep wearing nothing but his socks… (*get tissue!! Nose bleed alert*)
  26. How he managed to admit #25 while laughing
  27. His Hamtoro pyjamas
  28. How he broke ChangMin’s iPod while going to the bathroom
  29. How he apologized to ChangMin continuously
  30. How his cell phone is very similar to mine (his is Samsung Anycall, mine is Nokia, but looks the same)
  31. How he looks good after staying up all night
  32. How he’d stay by a member’s bedside all night if they’re sick so he can be there when they need anything
  33. How he looks good with any hair color
  34. How he looks good with any hair style
  35. He looked so truly happy when he found his biological mother
  36. How his pictures as a baby can makes me go “awww’ for days
  37. How his Mandarin pronunciation is flawed but he still tries so hard to perfect it
  38. How he starts the beginning of many songs and leads TVXQ to a good start
  39. How his life story is like a fairytale
  40. How his life story made me cry rivers
  41. How JaeHo makes me jealous of Yunho, and this is sad considering that it’s like that I’m jealous over a guy for a guy!
  42. How he tries so hard to not cry in front of people
  43. How his tears can make the other members cry because of how rare it is to see them
  44. How good he looks shirtless
  45. How his quote is “the architect of my own future is me.”
  46. How his quote inspired me so much
  47. How he looks so amazing playing the piano
  48. How when he was a baby his cheeks were 100% pinch~able
  49. How I can swoon for hours and not be sick of it all
  50. How he still cries sometimes because of his ex-gf
  51.  How this proves that he knows what true love it
  52. How he desperately want both his birth and adoptive parents to get along
  53. How he tries hard not to hurt his Cassiopeia
  54. How he can still have a smile on his face when his eyes look so sad
  55. How he makes my heart melt to know he’s in pain
  56. How he’d go out drinking with YooChun at times
  57. How he’d trey to spend enough time with each of his 8 older sisters, and both his parents
  58. How he’d try to spend time with his half sister and half brother too
  59. how he inspired me to write fan fiction
  60. How he became my role model and so far never let me down
  61. How when he cries, I can tell that it’s honest and tears to be proud of
  62. He takes care of his own hair
  63. He takes care of the member’s laundry
  64.  He can act very immature at times to make everyone laugh
  65. He cares for TVXQ members and fans whole heartedly
  66. His personal style is awesome and better than those of his designers
  67. He doesn’t spend money like a celebrity, he still buys average priced goods
  68. He’s a rebel~
  69. He has extremely kissable lips
  70. His skin is flawless
  71. He can do tough farm well so he’s not a pampered prince like many assumes
  72. He looks adorable in a lion costume and 100% sexy in rebel clothing on a motorbike (balloon vs. Jap rising sun)
  73. His perfect smile
  74. His perfect deep eyes
  75. His hands are just so pretty
  76. He can dress a Barbie doll into a fashion diva on his first time playing with in (first time ever or first in a long time unknown, he has 8 sisters!!! It’s understandable if he played with them before)
  77. When he takes pictures of himself, the pictures turn out beautiful
  78. He always wear a cross somewhere (I’m Christian)
  79. He looks HOT in jeans!!! *Wahhhhh~ *MINE*
  80. He fed Yunho cake with the knife he cut it with
  81. JaeJoong said he loves me!!
  82. It’s cute how you wanted to cut an elephant’s hair in Malaysia
  83. JaeJoong with messy hair is just lovely and dreamy
  84. Him playing with his tongue is just adorable
  85. He has really nice nails
  86. He can makes glasses look good
  87. He’d make any designer clothe look good no matter how bad it actually is
  88. He looks like he stepped out of a comic book
  89. His ability to imitate people (Se7en)
  90. He seems so relaxed on shows (New Xman)
  91. He can sing acapella, R&B, rock and ballad
  92. He talks with such a beautiful voice I can never get sick of
  93. JaeJoong is wet hair is just… sexy
  94. He treats YooChun as a brother and is constantly trying to protect him
  95. He can quickly turn embarrassment to good humour even when he makes a mistake on stage
  96. He sings because its his passion and he truly loves it, he can express his passion and give his fans and the world the best music
  97. His triceps and biceps~
  98. The way he looks at a fan at an autograph session and by looking into his eyes, I can just melt to a puddle in a heart beat
  99. When he’s tired, his eyes can melt me with the kindness and softness in them
  100. I love JaeJoong because there’s no other way to live other than being madly in love with him.