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Just Can’t 

By: Raera

Sometimes, it’s not the glamour that is the most beautiful. Sometimes, it’s not the tears that symbolize the most suffering. Perhaps I grew myself into a shell that’s become too stiff to break out of, but perhaps deep into my soul, I’m the only thing locking myself in.

I’m just another person who eats, sleeps, and feel emotions strongly. Every morning, the sun shines down on me just like it does on everyone else. I can pretend to smile and mirror the bloom of early spring, I can believe that I’m just another insignificant part of our world. I did that as a routine, but today; I just don’t want to.

Today, I feel empty and worn out. Today, I can’t seem to enjoy anything; it’s almost as if I’m watching myself go on from an out-of-body point of view. I talk but no one hears what I really want to say. I listen but nothing interests me. I try to find passion but integrity slips my grasp. It is a really sad part of my life. I try to live but fail to find something to live for. Upon failure I try to give up, but fail to find the strength to restart my journey. In every single way, I see myself as a failure. That’s my point of view today.

Sometimes, when you realize that you went the wrong way, you can turn back and restart.

Sometimes, you just can’t.

And sometimes, like today, it’s just PMS.